Hello I am Emily and this is my blog about my life with endometriosis
Its late and I am sat alone downstairs in the dark with only the light of my laptop, I came down here due to a silly disagreement but ended up staying as I am too sore to sleep. Barely a day goes by at the moment that I sleep soundly anymore. My condition affects me in so many ways I just don't know where to begin however I aim for this to be a positive place to share my dreams and hopes for the future and hopefully see these dreams start to take shape and grow (cheesy I know).
I want a baby. There I said it, its not that difficult but its something I have really difficulty admitting to myself, you see I have a condition which makes this much more tricky a dream than it should be at only 24 years old. I have severe endometriosis, a condition which means the lining of my womb grows all over my pelvis and causes intense pain/pulling sensations. I have this to a severe extent involving 1/3 of my bowel, large specialist cysts on my ovaries and the area behind my womb all but doesn't exist any longer as it is so full of adhesions. I had surgery recently to try and rectify this a little, they did all they could however it is extremely severe and at my appointment I was told if I want to have a child now is the time. All of this is scary, I had mention of IVF and temporary menopause injections (which I have since started). In the meantime I suffer badly with pain on an almost daily basis, I struggle hard to hold on to my job, I put a great deal of effort into keeping a happy positive relationship with my fiance and his three year old daughter and I try to keep the balance of optimistic but realistic about my chances of having a family.
This is my blog, I may not keep it going but I want to, in my heart I hope one day I can look back and read this seeing what a journey I went through to attempt to have a child. Whether this is successful or not I have decided to take all options open to me so I can know in my heart I have tried.
